Haleigh's Birth Story pt. 2

And the rest of the story..... I was having my moments when I was in the hosptial since I was by myself most of the time. My sister was sick so she was unable to be there with me most of the time and Micah was at home with Brandon who was very sick at the time. My dad would come up first thing in the morning and he would stay about ten minutes ans over my three day stay certain day's my dad would be my one and only visitor and I was very bummed out over the passing of my mom. I would just sit and stare at my beautiful baby girl and wish that my mom could of been there to hold her new grand daughter in her arms. I spend valentines day in the hosptial and talk about the mother baby unit being crazy alot of babies were born that day. While I was on the phone with my dad later that day he said God spoke to me and told me to tell you to be still and be quiet tonight and I knew that in me heart that my mom was going to viasit me and I started to cry. Well nothing happened that night it was very busy on that floor and the power had gone out and I had woken up to go get Haleigh to nurse her and people were just running all over the place. So let fast forward a bit the next evening my dad told me the same thing and I did just that and some time during the evening I felt my Mom rubbing my left leg and I really needed her at that time and she was there I learned a huge lesson that evening that my Mom is and alway's will be with me. January 8th will mark the one year anniversary of my mom's passing so please pray for strength and comfort for all of my family and myself as well.

Well tomorrow is Christmas Eve and also my mom's b-day. I have shed a few tears this evening. Some were happy tears b/c she is spending her birthday with Jesus and some were sad because it just won't be the same without her here. She loved Christmas it was her favorite time of the year. I miss her so much but I will be happy and I will enjoy this Christmas because she would want me to.

Last night my sleep was very choppy. Brandon and Haleigh both went to bed at eight and than Brandon woke up at 2:00 in the morning and we were up for an hour and than we fell back to sleep. So I looked at the clock and I said to myself that I hope that Haleigh sleeps until at least six well she woke up at five. I changed her because she was wet and made her a bottle and than Daddy took over so that I could go back to sleep and I woke up at seven to find Micah and Haleigh snuggled together on the sofa and she fell asleep on her daddy's chest. She is getting more and more comfortable with Micah and I love it so he can take care of her while I get to sleep in every once in a while.

Getting ready for Santa and a little bit about Haleigh's Birth Story

Well time is getting closer for Santa Clause to make is trip around the world and I can't wait to see Brandon's face Christmas morning. I know that he will be very excited to see what Santa has brought for him and for Haleigh has wellm, they both have been very good this year. It is hard to believe that my Haleigh-bug is two months shy of turning one. I found myself yesterday thinking about the night that I was in Labor and I didn't even know it. The contractions were not bad at all but they were coming every three minutes, I was in denial b/c I had a drs. appt. earlier in the day and there was no sign of anything happening anytime soon. She made her arrival at 12:53 A.M. on Feburary 13th. she was three weeks early. She weighed in at 6 pounds 15.9 ounces and she was 19 inches long. I still wonder what she would of weighed if I had carried her to the 39 week mark, that was when my c-section was scheduled for. But I quess that she could not wait to see all of her family and friends. Haleigh knew that I needed her with just losing my mom a little over a month before I have another story to share about one night when I was still in the hosptial but I will do that at a another time.

nineteen day's

until Santa arrives and Iam having mixed feeling's. Iam missing my momma terribly and yet at the same time Iam happy for her since she will be spending her Christmas with Jesus in Heaven. I need to be happy for Brandon and Haleigh and I feel deep in my heart that we are going to have a wonderful Christmas/

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone

Iam thankful for my friends and my family, and my hubby and my two beautiful children, My momma is spending her first Thanksgiving in heaven and I hope that she has a wonderful feast of all of the finest foods in the world.

Haleigh

is talking I was walking across the living room and she was saying ma-ma, ma-ma I love hearing those words it just melts my heart. She has been talking for the past few weeks but I was not 100% sure because it would be just here or there that she would say something. She say's da-da and ba-ba but mostly ma-ma and I think that she say's that more because she see's me the most and I provide most of her care. But if she is going to be anything like Brandon that ma-ma stage won't last long and I will be hearing da-da all the time.

my son

This afternoon Brandon puts on my shoes and to my surprise he got them on the right feet and he turns to me and Micah and says I'm going work bye-bye. I thought that it was cute that he has picked up on that every time Micah leaves the house he is going to work. Brandon's imagination has really taken off here lately and I love watching Brandon play with his toy's and he loves to sit and color in a coloring book even though all he does is scribble and he is playing with Haleigh alot more often as well.

My Grandmom

well as some of you know she had a stoke earlier on in the week well she had another one Friday night and she is back at PRMC and she also is sick so once she is better she is going back to the rehab facility. After she recovers she is going ot be moving back to Balitmore wiht my Aunt Georgie and my Uncle John. Dad is doing well with all of this. Things are going good with the construction at Kim and Keith's house and we should be able to start moving more things in Dad's house as the week goes on and completly be settled in by November 14th. Iam going to put up my Christmas decorations right away. I can't wait for Christmas this year it is going to be a fun one with the kid's and Iam hoping that we get at least one good snow storm.

Today I went to wally world looking for costumes for next year but I did not have any luck at all. But while I was walking around I noticed that they were already playing Christmas music and that the Christmas merchandise was already being put out on the shelves. I think that we as consumers need a break in between the Holidays it seems like that retailers are always wanting to rush from one Holiday to the next one. I remember when I worked in the cash office over night way back when it was Christmas night and when I went to lunch on the wal-mart radio Christmas music was playing and when I returned from lunch it was back to the regular wal-mart radio. I love Christmas it is my favorite time of the year but it seems like everyone is in such a hurry for it to get here and when it is over they are in a hurry to get back to every daylife. But one thing that I can't wait for is to see the look of excitement on Brandon's face this year when the Christmas Tree goes up and the look on his face Christmas morning.

The love that Brandon has for his Sister

Brandon loves his sister so much and it shows he gives he kisses all the time and last night when I was giving Haleigh a bath Brandon was standing there and normally he does not ever take a bath with her but I put him in the tub with her last night and he looked at her and gave her a kiss right on her forehead I love these moments. This morning Haleigh was playing on a blanket on the floor all by herself and Brandon sat down and played with her. She fell backwards while they were playing and he said to her are you o..k. and he tried to pick her up all by himself. They do have thier moments when he taked every toy she is playing with even if it is hers he say's mine. He is a good big brother to her and I know that there will be little fights over toys as she gets bigger but I always will have these memories of the two of them.

Well let me see where do I start I just want to take a moment and thank all of my friends that have been there for me and my family over these past ten months. There have been so many changes that have taken place some happy and some sad. Marly thanks for being there and coming up to the hosptial every day to spend some time with me and Haleigh it meant so much. Those day's were hard for me b/c I missed my mom so much and just knowing that she would of been there every moment she could have, but you help fill that void for me. You are and always will be my best friend we have been through alot together and I love you with my whole heart and soul, you are like my sister. My father has grown to be a wonderful father I had a good relationship with him but living with my parents again during the time my mom was sick helped bring us closer b/c I helped him with taking care of my mom during those last few weeks. I think that God had a plan and that was part of it. Last but not least my sister I cherish every phone call and every visit , I think that we all have realized a few lesson's in life since Mom got sick again one year ago today it has brought us closer and I am very happy about that. I will be glad when I can see my mom's face again but she knows Iam not ready any time soon, my work here on earth is not done yet. But when it is I will not be afraid because I will be in Heaven with my momma and all of those other friends and family that have gone home before all of us. Sorry to get all mushy here but Iam fine it is hard looking back and just knowing that a year ago life as we all knew it was changing and I miss my mom so much at certin times. I thought that the holiday's were going to be a little bit easier since in reality we have had our first Christmas without her but I see this one being harder for all of us. Because last year not knowing what was lying ahead of us we all had bought Mom gifts and this year there will be no gifts to buy. I want to do a little something special for my Dad in memory of my mom but I need ideas if you have any that you would like to share let me know.

Well things are going great we only have a few weeks until we are moving and I can't wait to be settled again. I am at the mid-term already it is hard to believe that as well. For those of you that know me real well won't be shocked when I say this that pretty much all of my christmas shopping is done I only have a few people left and I will be finished with in the next few weeks and than the fun begins. I love shopping for the gifts for others but I hate the wrappign portion of it. Well I will be putting up the tree when we move b/c I love christmas and the Holiday season. I hope and pray that this Christmas won't be to hard on me and my family. My mom loved Christmas so much and since we have already had our first Christmas with out her so to speak I hope that this one is a little eaiser.

Haleigh is sitting up all on her own 99% of the time and she is starting to talk. She is growing like a weed and as for Brandon he is going through the TERRIBLE TWO'S. But he is still an angel at times. I love my babies so much and it is hard to believe that Brandon is 2 1/2 and Haleigh is 8mths old already where does the time go.

happy times

Well we are going to be moving in the next three to four weeks and I can't wait to finally have a fenced in backyard so that way I don't have to worry any longer when Brandon is outside playing and the best part is the house that we are moving into is the house that I grew up in. I have started packing a little bit, just like that things on the wall's since we don't need those things. We are going to be moving one room at time starting with the kids rooms first. I will be glad when we are finally settled again so we can enjoy our "new" house.

My sister has finally landed the job with perdue after three seperate interviews with numerous diffrent people within the company. This is the job that she really wanted and Iam so happy for her. Congradulation's I am so proud for you that you just did not settle on something that you would not be happy in doing.

eight months in heaven

tomorrow my mother will be in heaven for eight months and lately Iam finding myself missing her more and more as each day passes. I often wonder why did this have to happen to me and my family, and we may never know the answer to that question and that is one question that we all have asked more than once. I look at my children and I often wonder does my mother check in on them from time to time and Iam postive that she does. She would not miss these two kids growing up. When I was pregnant with Brandon my mother made sure that he knew who she was and that she loved him so much she would see him on a daily basis and not a day went by that she did not see him even if it was for a half of an hour. She would of not had it any other way and it melted her heart the first time that he said mom-mom and I know for a fact that he has not forgotten who she is and he will take this picture that was taken when he was 13 months old off of my end table and just look at her and he will say mom-mom. He was the apple of my mother's eye.

Than shortly after that photo session at the picture people I found out that I was pregnant with baby number two and I was very upset over that and that was the last thing that I needed that time in my life , Micah and I had some financial issues and we had just moved in with my folks and I find out that Iam pregnant and shortly after all of this I had a threatned miscarriage eleven weeks into the pregnancy and my attitude quickly changed about this baby that was growing inside me .God spoke to me and said I have gave you a gift I know that she was not planned by you but she was by me and you will find out why later. So a few weeks passed and I lost my job and than the rest of my world came crashing down my mom was diganosed with terminal liver and brain cancer . I knew than why I became pregnant with haleigh and that was so once again I could be strong for my mom and the rest of my family as I had done before. There were many times that my mom would tell me that she was scared and she knew that things were going to be diffrent than the previous time. I would tell her that everything was going to be o.k. no matter what way it turned out and I really wanted mom to be there in the physical state when I gave birth to my baby girl but that was not god's plan instead she was there in the spritital state and Kim and I both felt her presence in that operating room.

I often feel her around me and I often wonder what is mom doing in heaven? I hope that she is floating around in a pool she would do that daily and I also hope that she is eating Crab's and drinking her Pina Colada's and watching down on all of us.

Well I am emotionally exhausted so Iam going to call it a night and until I write again God Bless all my friends and family and for those of you that knew my mother you have a extra Angel looking out for you just like my family does.

Love you all, Tracey

Today was my first day at Wor-Wic and what a great one it was. It was kind of odd going back to school after 11 plus years but there are people of all age groups in my classes and I can't wait to see what everyone is like and getting to know these people. I really like my instructor's and I really think that I will love my writing class the best and the other funny thing is in high school I was TERRIBLE in math and this instructor is presenting to the class in such a wonderful way that this all makes sense to me so for the first time ever I think that Iam going to great in math.

My Brandon has been a very sick little boy since Saturday he would run a very high temperature during the overnight hours and so Monday we had a trip to the doctor that turned up nothing so home we went with intructions that I was to follow including bringing him back to the doctor if he was not better by wednesday and he was not so back we went and he had blood work done and well he broke his fever last night and he has been fine all day. Thank god for that we are still wating on the lab results, hopefully we get a answer with that but we shall see if it shows anything.

Lil miss had her sixth month check up yesterday and she is in perfect health, she weighs 16 pounds and one ounce and she is 26 inches long she is growing like a weed. Brandon is in the process of learning his shapes and colors and everything in between. Ryan is getting ready to start Middle School and I look at him and I can't believe that he will be eleven this December he is growing up to a wonderful young man we are all very proud of him. Well the rest of are doing good and I am looking forward to christmas this year it should be a fun one with Brandon Iam not wanting to rush time but the past two christmas the excitement has not been there for him and this year it will be and Haleigh will just be happy with the noise the tissue and wrapping paper makes. This summer has flown by and I am looking forward to the fall. Brandon and Haleigh have a professional photo shoot on September 6th and I can't wait until that day either it should be fun. The photographer is Melissa and her website is www.bluebugphotography.com check her out she is wonderful . I will post some pictures after they are finished. I will write soon and until than take care everyone and god bless.

My Haleigh Bug started doing raspberries last night it is the cutiest thing it seems liek she is learning something new every day and she rolls all around the living room.I hope that she is going to be crawling soon. Brandon is saying new words on a daily basis he is learning his shapes and color's and he is a very smart lil' man. As for me I registered for classes yesterday and school starts September 6th I will be going four days a week. Well that is all the updates for now I will write about things as they happen because if I don't I will forget.

Today is going to be a productive day I can just feel it once i get my butt in gear I want to go through all of the kid's toy's and box them up that way they are ready for the toy exchange next week. Iam also going to catch up on unfinished housework and little odd's end's around the house. I may paint Brandon's room ,his room is the Disney Car's theme and I just need to decide what color I want to go with . So much to do and not enough time but I will cross them off my list one by one and that is all that I can do after all but hey I let things go and in the dusting from time to time because my babies will only be little once and you can never get that time back once it goes by so cherish every moment wiht your children.

Iam now a CNA

I passed the final skills test with flying color's so now I need to send my application off to the Maryland Board of Nursing in Baltimore and I will taking my GNA exam it is a written test of 62 questions and a skill drill that day as well. This exam is the 29th of this month. This week the job hunt begins and also enrollment in to a few pre-req's that way Iam one step closer to becoming a LPN or and RN if I go that far with this. Wish me luck everyone. I know my mom is very proud of me and the next bitter sweet moment of my family will be when I graduate but I know that my mom will be there.

Today was my parents 36th wedding anniversary I think that my daddy did o.k. today every time that I talked to him on the phone he sounded great and I saw him as well and he looked good to.

Well that is all for now Iwill write in a few day's.

Brandon and Haleigh

Brandon must be going through a phase I hope he will not let you take off certain pieces of clothing like a shirt he wants to wear it twenty four seven and he gets so upset when you take it off that he cries and tries to put it back on. As for Haleigh she is teething ugh and it has been terrible and she is becoming independent and she is starting to hold her bottle and roll over my my it is hard to believe that she is almost six months old. Where have my babies gone they are growing up way to fast. Well that is about all that is new over here with the kid's. Everyone else is doing great Micah is going to have his seven year anniversary with Wal-mart and he will be 100% vested with the company as for me Monday morning Iam going to Wor-Wic and Iam going to register for my pre-req classes for the nursing program and lets hope and pray that I get accepted in the program it will take me two years to become an R.N. Iam looking forward to all of these changes.

My Blog

Well I finally decided to set up a blog this way family and friends can keep up with this crazy household and since I don't have time to call each and everyone of you and believe me I would love to be able to do but with two young kids and enrolling in College at the age of twenty nine life is pure CRAZY.